Two years ago, I looked into your eyes
A background of water and stone to frame our portraits
With family and friends to share my happiness
I told you that I would never leave, I would always appreciate and be sincere
You told me that you were my forever
The knife cut us deeply and our essences became one
We dance the night away to our favorite songs
I hugged you and swayed with you
Not to the melody, but to the rhythm of our heartbeats
“I was going to take you home tonight.”
We slip away to our retreat; surprise
I spent hours in bed listening, loving, learning
Forgetting that the outside world existed
We were all the two that we needed
Misunderstandings led to arguments
This must have been the fuel that fueled your hate
As business trips and late nights at work became more frequent
We both knew what was happening, but only you were willing to accept it.
My heart ached when you moved out of our double bed
Looking for shelter and privacy away from me
Yet close enough that I could almost touch you
I almost see you smile, I almost feel the betrayal
A year a day and a world apart
You forgot what this day meant to me, to us
I made a meal and I made the champagne
He carefully wrapped his gifts and waited in anticipation.
When you arrived you weren’t impressed
Almost bothered by the memory
You barely ate, you shrugged off your diamonds and went to your room
I sat alone heartbroken silently by a spell before retreating to mine
The tension grew and I didn’t know what to do
To calm the storm that was inside of me
The only clue you ever saw
Was it the rain that dripped down my face?
Your infidelity became more pronounced
When you came to my bed in the twilight hours
Brought me out of my drunken slumber
To tell me how you slept with another man and it was my fault
Coexistence became almost unbearable
I was looking for straws
The last night that I sneaked into your room
To try to calm the demons with a peace offering.
A plan to tell you stories while you fell asleep
Our favorite hobby – greeted resentfully
Kicked out of your room that eve
I knew that I had lost you to another
It had been two years since that happy day
When we vow to live our lives together
Not a night goes by that I don’t think of you
But I know I’m the only one, you’ve moved on
I am left with nightmares, debt and anguish
You moved into your new life without missing a beat
I was forgotten, not even a fleeting memory
That the 7 for me will always be
A time of mourning – imprisoned
You submitted months ago, but you won’t let me go
I won’t fix it, I’m easily ignored
Tortured daily by thoughts of what might have been
Only now I realize that you were never that person
That looked me in the eye and gave me strength
It was all an act for you to win
I’m trying my best to move on
To live the life that he wanted us to have